I’m going to try to do this blog thing more often.

Rephrase – I’m not going to “try”, I’m “going to” do this.

WRITE. Wait, let me change my font, it’s driving me crazy.

I’m going to write without any judgement on myself. For some reason, it is a very difficult thing for me to do. I know I’m not alone in this though. I’ve done some reading..

I’m going to do this because I think it will be good for my soul, good practice for future endeavours, and something that’s 100% selfish. The good kind of selfish. Shellfish. What?

The hardest part about this, for me, is not knowing exactly what to write about. I don’t want to indulge in myself (even though it is my blog) because that would feel, well, self-indulgent. Although, sometimes all we have to offer others is our perspective, our experiences and our outlook. Since the beginning of time. So, I will most likely write a hell of a lot about myself(ie).*

*If you do choose to read my blog, please be prepared for a lot of dry, non-so-funny, self-indulgent/deprecating humour. Being from a large (loving + mental) family of 10 siblings, I’ve had a lot of empathetic, enabling laughter around my jokes since a young age. So, cut me some slack.

I’m currently writing from the patio of Go Get ‘Em Tiger!, on Larchmont in Los Angeles, on a Monday. It’s boppin’!* (see above) The weather is nice. I have a 4$ green tea beside me (over-priced) and my laptop, which I thankfully retrieved after leaving it on my flight from Nashville on Saturday. Lot’s on my mind, I guess. What’s on my mind?

I have no idea what my true purpose is right now!! Aside from following my heart, which seems to be one of the things I do really well (that and music, I’ve been told, but I question that one often, too). As with all circumstance, so many little things (including the heart thing) have brought me to this very moment. I don’t feel incredibly prepared for what’s next, to be honest. I’m relatively settled in who I am though, and what I want. I know what I don’t like, that’s for sure. I’m trying to get good at not spending my time with people with whom I get nothing out of intellectually, spiritually or emotionally. This is tough too, as I’m a people pleaser. Yuck. *I also would like to incorporate “with whom” into my vocabulary more often.

I’m a musician, sometimes actress, I think. On good days I feel like I know what I’m doing. Or, let’s be honest and human — when people are praising me, I really feel like I know what I’m doing. On quiet days, I feel like no one cares, I don’t even care, and I dive into moments of severe and irrational self-doubt. This is good to know. It’s funny hearing myself write this, because I see a catch-22. I do what I want in the moment because I’m (as stubborn as hell) looking for my truth, but after the fact, I’m waiting for the affirmation. If I’m going to drive toward the former, I need to let go of the latter. Easy, right? I tell myself this all the time. Life does tend to give you exactly what you need.

Feelings aren’t real. Weird huh? Spill your truth, love your vulnerability.

I’ve always enjoyed writing and sharing personal experiences. Although I’m quite private, maybe something I share can help someone else on their journey. I also like to make people laugh, so this is a nice little outlet for me… (cue, “aww, Alexz is so considerate… sigh”). I want to watch my language though. I still believe in grace and try to lean towards the classy side of things, no matter how edgy or dirty this industry (world) can make you. Or tries to make you.

I’m trekking some new territory in my life right now guys! Between a past chapter and the next one. These times are kinda scary, but amazing. You need to dig. (I) need to dig. Maybe you too, I don’t know..  Let’s do a little re-cap for the hell of it since I haven’t posted here since my European tour, shall we?

On the music end. Releasing my latest album “Let ‘Em Eat Cake” via pledge was actually a weight lifted considering how long the process was, and even more than that, how unique it was a&ring my own album. If you’re an artist, I’m sure you know the drive to get your art as far as you can take it, into as many people’s peripherals as possible. You also know it’s important to have a mentor. Someone you can bounce your vibe off of. Someone who gets you. Life is a learning curve, and you can only make the best decision that you feel in the moment. I almost feel like I saved the album close to the end of the race, to be honest. I learned a lot this past year, and I’m thankful for that. I was in the midst of working with a pr team and shuffling out every penny I had from my merchandise sales to try to get my just released album seen on some other platforms other than my twitter, fb, & instagram (which, thanks to you, exists). It was tough, and even with a Grammy winning producer behind me, almost impossible. It’s not the rejection that’s tough… because that just comes with life… and I’m an actress so, I’m used to that territory. It’s the impossibility of being given a chance to truly get a leg up as an independent artist, let me rephrase, the ability to continue creating independently, is the tough part. I’m not talking “signed to an independent label with support”, I’m also not speaking for every independent artist, I’m talking about a girl who’s spending every last cent of her sales and touring earnings into her music, back into her tours, and her pr. Having a fan base is a gift, but it isn’t enough. I’ve been offered deals, but that’s a route that could be worse for wear based on how unstable majors are nowadays. Also, I’ve been shelved twice. Would you touch that stove again..? In the end, it isn’t even about quality. It’s the luck of the right person pushing the right button, at the right time. It can feel impossible sometimes..

The beauty of it though, as Jay-Z once stated “The genius thing we did was, we didn’t give up.”

We keep going.

We have no choice. It’s the voice, it’s the drive, it’s the whisper that tells you you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be (which can be such a pain!). I’m not sure how many artists will admit it, but deep down, you’re hoping someone you admire and love will tell you to give up…  just stop. Move on and be practical with your life. For whatever reason. I actually believe I’m a little insane.

This isn’t every day mantra, but it does get dark.

I’ve learned to really manage my expectations.

Constantly being thankful for the opportunity to have put out a few albums and ep’s that came from a place of truth, during that time of my journey.

I can only hope the world spins to my beat and offers me the chance to continue touring and the heart to keep writing (without having to shave my head, or free the nipple).

I’m writing. I’m sculpting my music, a few music videos in the works and most importantly working on my soul.

You have to work for happiness, you know. It doesn’t land on your doorstep.

I guess by the end of this entry, this is me, sharing with you. Simple as that. Maybe I’ll start a punk band called The Spoilers. Or, maybe I’ll never write in this shitty thing again.

Let’s see what tomorrow brings!

What a ride.

PS. You can vote for me to be able to fund a music video from my latest album at StoryHive: http://www.storyhive.com/project/show/id/484

Or don’t, it’s all good.

I’m going to close this now. I won’t edit or change a thing.

Love AJ


Hacking, amongst other things.


Writing this post was something I pondered on for a few weeks.. but, it’s an interesting story and I thought I should share it with my loyal fans..  especially if any of you have gone through what I’ve experienced recently..

I came to remember why I started this blog in the first place. To have a sounding board for those who care to read, but especially for my own reflection on my journey through life and being an artist… a place where I can share my truth.

Have you ever been hacked?

It occurred to me how many people haven’t experienced this first hand… for those who have, I feel for you. Many of my friends have seen me in tears – especially when my whole email got deleted (by accident) since 2005 (!!!) at the Mac Store trying to re-configure my iCloud of all things.. I’ll get there in a sec..

It’s devastating. For some reason, it’s been happening to me for years since first signing with Capitol Records in 2006. Demo’s have been leaked, co-writes have been leaked, photo’s of course, and recently my iCloud was compromised which revealed my personal calendar/journal and all of my industry contacts. I change my password every 5 days. People I have worked with have been emailed by an impersonator asking for demo’s and un-finished material…. This is embarrassing. It doesn’t represent me and it could have potentially damaged my relationships had I not realized and personally contacted these friends myself. — See attachment below of one (of many) false emails to around 20 writers I had worked with….

False Email

Threats as well. See attachment below of (one of many) emails to one of my personal addresses demanding demo’s after getting a hold of my personal calendar…


I also got a screen-grab photo of my calendar sent to me as well. SUPER exciting viewing my yoga, writing, and dating schedule.. (?) (Ps. On my off days, I’m a CIA Agent).

Even members of my family have been targeted. More recently, verbally abused over twitter. This lights the flame in the belly.

I’m a singer-songwriter who has used the crowd-funding platform as an exchange for the music I create and the shows I play. I realized that “going directly to the fanbase” was a new shift in involving your listeners first hand on the product you deliver. I love that I get a chance to interact with my fans like this — I am incredibly thankful for this support, and it has given me the chance to tour twice this past year, create merch to sell world-wide, set-up my next album, shoot music videos and live videos, meet my supporters first hand, and everything else that initials being an independent artist. However, after reading some comments via-twitter, under my instagram photos and my blog email –  I did not realize there was more that was expected or wanted of me? Boundaries being crossed, and entitlement felt from a minority group of fans.

My most recent experience via the internet.
I had been receiving notifications from Instagram that a specific few were trying to hack into my account… lovely, but what do you do? I left it for a few months…
See attachment of notification below. I decided to black out the names for respectful purposes. I don’t know why Instagram specifically in this case, but these were the emails I had been receiving – quite a few times..


At this point, I had decided to respectfully take matters into my own hands, reach out to the names that had been shown to me via these notifications, of course privately. I had these emails via Kickstarter, or my email lists from live shows I had played. This is what I wrote.

My email

After receiving e-mails back that there had been no such kind of occurrence, (phew!) (Names and emails I will keep private out of respect!) I believed, trusted their truth and then emailed back a response, a thank you, and that was that.

So, it seems like there could be a rumour going around that “Alexz is accusing her fans of hacking her”. This to me, is crazy because I’ve always lived my life giving everyone the benefit of the doubt.

On that note, if you are indeed reading this, thank you for your time. I appreciate you hearing my thoughts… Further, If you are someone who has been blocked recently from my twitter feed – please know – I wake up everyday, as do you. Sad moments, great moments, up’s and down’s, fears and tears. I choose to surround myself with light, goodness and things that help make me feel strong and create the music I love creating so much. What would you do in my position?

I will honestly block anyone who is disrespectful to me, or my family. Nothing more is owed than the product I create and the appreciation of my genuine, amazing fans. I thank you, again if you have been one of those supporters. I have enjoyed getting to know some of you personally, and I truly wouldn’t be here without the loyalty of those who listen to my music. It is such an exciting time.. I’m looking forward to more shows, albums, and potential tours – aiming to play overseas as soon as the album is ready for release.

– Love,

Alexz Johnson

Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.
Viktor E. Frankl

Tour, New Music & 2013


I love this blog. I feel it’s a good way to get perspective on my choices and upcoming routes I plan on taking, and while doing so it also lets me bring you into my thought process.. Honesty and vulnerability all tied into one! At the end of the day, one can hope they’re headed in the right direction.

This last few months has been amazing..

I got to check-off my first US tour wish (!!), I learned so much on the road, I got to meet so many of my fans and really got a chance to connect with them. I fell in love with music all over again and since wrapping up the tour in LA Aug 18th, I’ve been writing non-stop for the next album. Videographer & photographer Jessica Earnshaw documented the tour here.

It’s always a strange feeling getting off of a movie, or a tour, or anything that creatively heightens the senses. You have days where you’re left with yourself (which can be a challenge). Being still… I felt this was something I needed to do for a bit before heading into the next music project. Just be with myself for a second and really think about the sound I’m going for. I pulled the plug on going to London to start recording (for now).. As badly as I wanted to immediately start the next album, something inside of me said to slow down, write more, look at all of your options and songs and make sure you’re doing this because the timing is right, not because you have a fear you’ll lose an opportunity.

I think those are important things to think about…

I’m so excited about some of this new music I’m writing, I need to take a deep breath.. kid in a candy store.

I played Webster Hall on Sept 28th, opening for Lindsey Stirling, which was such a blast. I have a some shows coming up this month that I’m excited about. Rockwood Music Hall for CMJ Oct 17th, and opening for Charlene Kaye & Jay Stolar at Brighton Music Hall Oct 29th in Boston, which should be sweet.

I’m in the process of going through paperwork in signing with music management. It’s a gift having the extra hand on a day-to-day basis as things move forward, or sometimes backwards, depending. Also depending on when you ask me, lol. I’m so stubborn with things like publishing and or/record contracts based on my history with them. That being said, I feel I’m surrounding myself with people I trust and want to build with so I can trust a little more.

I’m also working on a documentary that I’m excited about getting out to you.. :) Amongst other things.

It’s fall now in NY.. and I just found a record player for 80$. It’s a good day.

Love Al

Update on Packages and Hey!


I’ve been getting a ton of emails and tweets regarding where your Kickstarter packages are.

…I have no idea where they went.

..Just kidding.

They are on the way to you. Depending on where you live, you should get it in about 3 weeks at most. I wish I knew in hindsight how much time it was going to take to gather information from 939 people, on top of getting this tour off the ground. I’m sorry for the delay and thank you kindly for your patience!!

Also, for those who sent in rad t-shirt designs for this Skipping Stone tour, BLESS YOU! They are all so creative and different.. I ended up finding a great design that is in production now! I look forward to showing it to you guys.. hopefully you like it!

We leave for tour so soon..
I’m playing Rockwood Friday evening and sharing the stage with some fierce talent!! Misty Boyce and Theo Katzman.. it’s going to be a kickass way to kick-off this tour.

I’m also super excited to be back in Toronto July 26th to play The Drake! My dear friend Barb of Mamabolo is opening!

Again – thank you for being patient with your packages. Next time I’ll know it will take longer than a month..

Kickstarter excel sheets – it’s been real peachy keen, but I’m happy to not see you around for awhile…

Love Al


A Kickstarter Update

I figured I would blog about this as well – I sent this out via Kickstarter last night… and here it is again!

I’ll be using this blog as a place to document my tour experiences, and for starters I am thrilled to announce my upcoming tour dates HERE!!!

What a whirlwind couple of months this has been….I have learned so much about touring and merchandise, and releasing music independently, and producing music videos, and tour budgets… it’s incredible how much it takes to get a full band on the road. I’m blessed to be surrounded by amazing musicians here in NY, and I’m confident that I’ve put together quite the wicked band for this tour.. I can’t wait until you see them live.

It was amazing seeing the Kickstarter analytics of where backers were donating from around the world… it gives me so much drive to make sure I reach you. I was disappointed when facing the reality that I won’t be able to make it oversea’s for this specific tour, but I won’t say I didn’t try to budget it in. It just logistically wasn’t do-able this time around.

Just to break it down…

67k – Kickstarter takes 10%

57k – 10k to cover my visa to tour the US

47k – 10k merchandise for backers & tour

37k – 2,500 for PR

35k – The final tour budget I’m working with to headline my first US tour w/a full band.

I am pleased to say that your packages have been sent off this week to the fulfilment company for them to be shipped worldwide. It was too risky sending them individually myself, being that I won’t be home this summer incase any don’t reach their destination and bounce back. It took awhile to gather everyone’s info for shipping. The fulfillment company also helps run my online store, which has just launched today at www.alexzjohnson.com!!!

I am so thankful (for you.) and excited to finally get a chance to hit the road and share these songs… I feel this is an opportunity to build on this first tour and keep growing and learning and hopefully geographically expanding where I get to play!!!

That is the plan. It’s what this is all about.
Thank you for being a part of it.

Huffington Post did an interview with me about this whole experience, I thought I’d share.

Also, you will be able to follow the tour through photographs via alexzontour.tumblr.com


Skipping Stone EP on iTunes & Other Updates…


Nice to be back in the big city. My travels this last few months have been eventful to say the least. LA –> Miami to film a movie (yay for my visa!) –> than back to LA where I played Hotel Cafe and took some management meetings amongst other things. It’s been a ton of learning, everyday. Co-write contracts, Sync licensing, ISRC codes, distribution, apps, merchandise, online store, Sel#’s (still don’t know what that is..), enrolled a pr team! Rehearsals, music video, fulfillment companies, meeting amazingly talented musicians and digging into the Kickstarter backer reports! Finding innovative ways to spread the word on this EP from the ground up. I love having so much control.. although, I have moments of feeling more than a little frazZled. In the end, I want to make the right decisions and not act out of fear that I can’t do it myself…everything in good time! (Anything is possible). I am so lucky to have some really bright, brilliant friends to help with little things here and there… I so look forward to giving back..

Some of my merch arrived in LA at the Hotel show…I had some of it sent there for when I play the west coast. It was so cool holding the EP in my hands. So much heart went into this, it hurts! I’m getting my vinyl jackets created right now.. Here’s what I came home to in NY!

And it begins...

I’m playing Rockwood tomorrow night if you’re out and about.. it’s the official EP release show! Should be a good time..

Oh! Also! Check out this sweet new Alexz Johnson app by Mobile Roadie! —-> http://road.ie/alexz

Annnnd…. I just noticed that the Skipping Stone EP is available now on iTunes!!! Hard to get the timing perfect, but nonetheless, it’s out!!!

Step by step … :)

I hope this finds you well… I will be documenting and sharing my experiences through this Kickstarter campaign as best as I can. Shooting the music video for Walking this weekend — then tour talk!

Thank you for being on this journey with me… what a ride!


Just some things, un-edited version. (There’s no foul language or anything). #titletoolong

I don’t know why I’ve had resignation in writing what I’m doing and working on here in LA… It may be because (I feel) it’s not the most interesting of times for others to read (for me, it is very interesting. Very much). I’ve spent the past 2 weeks taking management meetings / booking agent meetings / planting the starting seeds of my upcoming tour (feels good to say that!!!!!) / song-writing / co-writing for other artists / doing yoga / drinking wine w/friends, sometimes by myself / screen-testing for US networks (often reluctantly, so let’s hope that doesn’t pan out! Just kidding!) and gearing up to head to Miami on Tuesday to film the ever postponed movie I am scheduled to film (helped get my visa to tour in the US!).

This tour is really important to me and I feel responsibility to make it great. I know I can’t do it all by myself (although, I am learning a ton!) so I want to make sure the right team is in place to move forward. It’s funny how pieces fall into place – it’s never on our timeline. It also, in the end, never lets us down!

Please continue to pass along the Kickstarter campaign to friends!!! Looking at the logistics, it takes a lot to conquer the tour I plan in my head… but I’m confident what I see is going to HAPPEN! I can’t believe what we’ve raised since launching… I feel very blessed.. overwhelmed, but in a good way!

I’m doing a “Farewell Kickstarter Stage-it Show” on March 23rd from Miami (60 days is a long time…I had no idea. It’s time to say goodbye). I also have a show coming up at Rockwood Music Hall in NYC on April 24th. Dates will be posted on fb and my website. – I’m pretty thrilled about Rockwood by the way… you can’t read enthusiasm through blogs, I promise you.

I do in all humble servitude (I like how that sounds) hope this finds you well.

Yes, this is a photo of me in the bathroom. It was good day today. I wish it was more creative, but... I don't really.

Have a great weekend,
Alexz xo