Writing this post was something I pondered on for a few weeks.. but, it’s an interesting story and I thought I should share it with my loyal fans.. especially if any of you have gone through what I’ve experienced recently..
I came to remember why I started this blog in the first place. To have a sounding board for those who care to read, but especially for my own reflection on my journey through life and being an artist… a place where I can share my truth.
Have you ever been hacked?
It occurred to me how many people haven’t experienced this first hand… for those who have, I feel for you. Many of my friends have seen me in tears – especially when my whole email got deleted (by accident) since 2005 (!!!) at the Mac Store trying to re-configure my iCloud of all things.. I’ll get there in a sec..
It’s devastating. For some reason, it’s been happening to me for years since first signing with Capitol Records in 2006. Demo’s have been leaked, co-writes have been leaked, photo’s of course, and recently my iCloud was compromised which revealed my personal calendar/journal and all of my industry contacts. I change my password every 5 days. People I have worked with have been emailed by an impersonator asking for demo’s and un-finished material…. This is embarrassing. It doesn’t represent me and it could have potentially damaged my relationships had I not realized and personally contacted these friends myself. — See attachment below of one (of many) false emails to around 20 writers I had worked with….
Threats as well. See attachment below of (one of many) emails to one of my personal addresses demanding demo’s after getting a hold of my personal calendar…
I also got a screen-grab photo of my calendar sent to me as well. SUPER exciting viewing my yoga, writing, and dating schedule.. (?) (Ps. On my off days, I’m a CIA Agent).
Even members of my family have been targeted. More recently, verbally abused over twitter. This lights the flame in the belly.
I’m a singer-songwriter who has used the crowd-funding platform as an exchange for the music I create and the shows I play. I realized that “going directly to the fanbase” was a new shift in involving your listeners first hand on the product you deliver. I love that I get a chance to interact with my fans like this — I am incredibly thankful for this support, and it has given me the chance to tour twice this past year, create merch to sell world-wide, set-up my next album, shoot music videos and live videos, meet my supporters first hand, and everything else that initials being an independent artist. However, after reading some comments via-twitter, under my instagram photos and my blog email – I did not realize there was more that was expected or wanted of me? Boundaries being crossed, and entitlement felt from a minority group of fans.
My most recent experience via the internet.
I had been receiving notifications from Instagram that a specific few were trying to hack into my account… lovely, but what do you do? I left it for a few months…
See attachment of notification below. I decided to black out the names for respectful purposes. I don’t know why Instagram specifically in this case, but these were the emails I had been receiving – quite a few times..
At this point, I had decided to respectfully take matters into my own hands, reach out to the names that had been shown to me via these notifications, of course privately. I had these emails via Kickstarter, or my email lists from live shows I had played. This is what I wrote.
After receiving e-mails back that there had been no such kind of occurrence, (phew!) (Names and emails I will keep private out of respect!) I believed, trusted their truth and then emailed back a response, a thank you, and that was that.
So, it seems like there could be a rumour going around that “Alexz is accusing her fans of hacking her”. This to me, is crazy because I’ve always lived my life giving everyone the benefit of the doubt.
On that note, if you are indeed reading this, thank you for your time. I appreciate you hearing my thoughts… Further, If you are someone who has been blocked recently from my twitter feed – please know – I wake up everyday, as do you. Sad moments, great moments, up’s and down’s, fears and tears. I choose to surround myself with light, goodness and things that help make me feel strong and create the music I love creating so much. What would you do in my position?
I will honestly block anyone who is disrespectful to me, or my family. Nothing more is owed than the product I create and the appreciation of my genuine, amazing fans. I thank you, again if you have been one of those supporters. I have enjoyed getting to know some of you personally, and I truly wouldn’t be here without the loyalty of those who listen to my music. It is such an exciting time.. I’m looking forward to more shows, albums, and potential tours – aiming to play overseas as soon as the album is ready for release.
Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.
Viktor E. Frankl