A Kickstarter Update

I figured I would blog about this as well – I sent this out via Kickstarter last night… and here it is again!

I’ll be using this blog as a place to document my tour experiences, and for starters I am thrilled to announce my upcoming tour dates HERE!!!

What a whirlwind couple of months this has been….I have learned so much about touring and merchandise, and releasing music independently, and producing music videos, and tour budgets… it’s incredible how much it takes to get a full band on the road. I’m blessed to be surrounded by amazing musicians here in NY, and I’m confident that I’ve put together quite the wicked band for this tour.. I can’t wait until you see them live.

It was amazing seeing the Kickstarter analytics of where backers were donating from around the world… it gives me so much drive to make sure I reach you. I was disappointed when facing the reality that I won’t be able to make it oversea’s for this specific tour, but I won’t say I didn’t try to budget it in. It just logistically wasn’t do-able this time around.

Just to break it down…

67k – Kickstarter takes 10%

57k – 10k to cover my visa to tour the US

47k – 10k merchandise for backers & tour

37k – 2,500 for PR

35k – The final tour budget I’m working with to headline my first US tour w/a full band.

I am pleased to say that your packages have been sent off this week to the fulfilment company for them to be shipped worldwide. It was too risky sending them individually myself, being that I won’t be home this summer incase any don’t reach their destination and bounce back. It took awhile to gather everyone’s info for shipping. The fulfillment company also helps run my online store, which has just launched today at www.alexzjohnson.com!!!

I am so thankful (for you.) and excited to finally get a chance to hit the road and share these songs… I feel this is an opportunity to build on this first tour and keep growing and learning and hopefully geographically expanding where I get to play!!!

That is the plan. It’s what this is all about.
Thank you for being a part of it.

Huffington Post did an interview with me about this whole experience, I thought I’d share.

Also, you will be able to follow the tour through photographs via alexzontour.tumblr.com


Dear 19 year old me..

I was writing my 19 year old self a letter and decided to put out a twitter message in hopes someone would want to write one and share it with me… It’s always so cathartic being reminded how similar we are. Here’s a few of the wonderful letters I received.. Thanks so much for passing along. You added so much light to my day.

My letter is at the bottom.

Enjoy.. x


Dear Young Self,

Enjoy your young years as much as you can because you’ll never get them back. They can seriously be the best years of your life.

Pay more attention and be grateful to the ones who truly love you – family and friends, but be careful of who you listen and become friends with. People will try to trick you into believing what they say but listen to your heart. You have to learn that mistakes are okay as long as you learn from them. Above all, always be honest.

Forge your own path, follow your muse even if it don’t seem practical to others. Your life is great, so it’s a good time to prepare for the future. Study hard, but don’t make it your life. Always take care of your health and exercise more.

Be more self-confident by accepting who you are, and always be yourself. What other people think of you isn’t nearly as important as what you think of yourself. Don’t look for a role model to imitate. Look for your inner self and you’ll find a person who may be forgotten, but who lives in you. Look for Christ.


I would tell my future self that it’s okay, I’m going to get cancer, take more pictures, and live for the minute, and love yourself.

Arvada, Colorado
Dear 19 year old me,
Brace yourself. You’re life is about to turn upside down! First off, you’re pregnant. Yup, that’s right. There’s a bun in that oven. You’re about to go through some very, very rough times but it’s ok. It does get better! Soon you’ll marry the man you love and he will join the Army. Don’t freak out, but you and your son (yup, it’s a boy!) are going to have to live alone for a year. You’re going to have to do all kinds of new and scary things by yourself, but it will make you so much stronger and appreciative of everyone you know and everything you have. Be strong! Remember, it’s ok to cry. Your husband will deploy twice and it will take it’s toll on you but in the end it will all work out. Don’t focus so much on the hard times (like living alone in a different state); instead, embrace the special one on one time you get with your son and how strong you and your husband’s bond becomes! Distance really does make the heart grow fonder. Remember that. Well, That’s all I can really say to you right now. Stay strong and keep your chin up! ;)
Love always,
25 year old you  =)

Dear 19 year-old Matt:
Stay/finish college, you’ll have to work twice as hard to get 1/2 the money.  You’l catch up eventually, but it would have been a lot easier.  I know you’ll be tempted to drop out in your junior year b/c you thought you life was falling apart and that no one was on your side.  But, the tough times are put in front of you so that you grow strong in all facets of your development.  The more you overcome, the more that is revealed to you.  It’s ironic how the worse it gets, the greater the reward.
Don’t be ashamed or afraid of love.  It’s better you learn to have your heart broken when you’re younger.  In your 30s you feel it much, much worse.  It still is worth it: the love, anger, work, disappointment, anticipation, hope & despair….but it’s like the chicken pox, better to feel the pain of a broken heart @ 19, than @ 35.
35 year old Matt.
Dear Nineteen Year Old me,
Stop worrying about when your life will begin. You’re not a spectator in the world, you need to stop idly standing by. You are meant to interact and bond with the strangers of the world. That is what life is about. You’re scared of getting hurt. You have no idea how strong you are or how the pain only makes you stronger. I know you’ve been rejected and it feels like nothing else matters. Rejection says more about the person doing the rejection than it does about you. Don’t waste your time worrying about what other people think. YOUR opinions define you. Being a chameleon and absorbing other people’s views will never let you stand out. Connect. Connect with others. Thats the promise of this world… That you will meet people who will shake up your world, break your heart, and maybe even change you forever. Don’t wait to fall in love, but Always make it count. If you aren’t in it all the way don’t waste his time. But if you are… Be honest. Don’t let your fear speak for you. Fear will only make your tongue sharp and cruel. You won’t be able to take words back no matter how hard you try. Make your words count but don’t use them to harm others. No matter how much you hurt at the time. Forgive your family for the flaws they’ve exhibited in the years past and the years to come. They’re the people you really “belong” to.  The people who will always gather together when tragedy hits home. Also, Don’t worry about your stupid loud laugh.  It’s awesome.Stop worrying about when your life will begin. It already has.

Dear Curtis,
Look at you go, buddy!
You’ve pulled through a lot and you’re reaching your goals.
But I have some advice for you, the time you spend worrying about what people think about you is time wasted. You are not going to please everybody even if you try with all your might. What’s important is that you don’t give up on what’s important to you and you don’t doubt yourself for one second!
There may be people who don’t like like your music, they may not like your clothes, style, personality, but if it’s important to you and you love each and every one of those things, then that’s the most important thing.
Please, don’t be ashamed of yourself, stop worrying about how people perceive you and just, be!
Love yourself more, you are a talented young man and you have people who DO support you.
Don’t be in such a rush to grow up, have fun!Your friend,

If I could write a letter to me at 19.When the chance presents itself take it. It doesn’t matter what it is, just go for it. Life is made up of experiences, so don’t waste them. Make them as interesting as you can  When you get the chance to go sky diving, travel Australia, and go surfing just do it don’t even hmmm and ha about it.

Switching majors in Uni was for the best, kids are great but being a teacher isn’t your dream. Start learning Russian and how to read Chinese, it will make the decision to do a masters much easier. At the moment you’re fumbling a little bit deciding if you should or not, but life is still moving on and you have a sweet job at the moment.

You’ll still be confused about what you want to do for the rest of your life, but embrace everything you do. Living in a trailer without heat or water for a month isn’t the worst thing in the world. It will help build character and make you happy to be Canadian. Sleeping with a touque and bunny hug on but denying being cold while it snows outside, well it makes for a good story.

You’ll meet all sorts of people: good and bad, but embrace it. Don’t let people get you down. They’re just there to make you stronger.

Most of all always go for what makes you happy. Visit with your grandmothers more and spoil them as much as you can. Tell your family you love them and keep in touch with your friends. You will be separated by a vast expanse, so enjoy each others company while you can. You’ll miss walking to 7eleven like penguins and laughing til you fall down crying.

“Keep your head up and your shoes tied cause it’s just about time to run.” – chad parenteau


Future You

Dear 2005 Valerie,You don’t know it yet, but you have a learning disability. Yes, you’ve managed to grow up without it being diagnosed. And yet, it will be another 5 years before it is recognized.  So, this undiagnosed “disorder” will play a major role in manifesting the obstacles of your early 20s:  repeatedly failing college courses, believing you are stupid and lazy, and ultimately becoming depressed.

But believe me:  You’re not stupid or lazy, or unmotivated.  You’re just not yet aware that your brain functions differently from others.  You’re unique.  So forget about doing things ‘the right way.’  Figure out what ‘your way’ is, and do it. It doesn’t matter where you “should be”–appreciate where you are and accept that all the failures you’re experiencing and will experience are blessings in disguise.  Because if you take away every expectation of where you should be, oughta be, could be, you’re not a loser at all.  And these experiences will guide you later when you revisit them.

It will be another year after your ADHD diagnosis that you will be frustrated with your “lack of progress” or “return to normalcy.” You will have forgotten already: you’re a unique person. Your brain functions differently from others.  It will never be normal, and for certain, it thinks of the strangest, most interesting and random things. Remember that. Celebrate the creativity that comes with it and enjoy the satisfaction that comes with being aware of all your idiosyncrasies.

Be kind to yourself. Forgive all your mistakes. Know that you’re a good person. And get enough sleep.

2012 Valerie

Hi Cloé,


You don’t know me yet but someday, in 5 years, you will. I’m you. Well, most specifically future 19 year-old you. And I have so much to say that I don’t know where to start.


You’re a little bit lost, uh? I know you, don’t lie to me. You pretend like you know where you’re going but you have absolutely no idea what you want to do with your life, and it scares you.
Well I have some good and some bad news for you: even at my age, you still don’t know. But the good news is that you’ll have done some awesome things and regret none of them.
That’s right, your life during the next 5 years is going to be awesome.

Ok, maybe not really. Actually the first 3 years are going to be a little bit rough, what with graduating from high school at 16 and getting totally lost in university because these people are no way like you. But you know what? The next two years are so worth it.


You’re probably reading this letter from your bedroom in the South of France, with IS music blasting out of your stereo system. Mom and Dad are getting divorced, and it’s very painful; I guess you’ve discovered Instant Star just a few months ago, and it’s really helping in the process. Jude’s parent’s divorce makes you feel like you’re understood and not alone in this, even if you won’t admit it. And you’re already becoming a big fan of Alexz, right? Don’t worry, that doesn’t go away either. I’m actually writing to you on an idea of her!


I can imagine you from here, wearing black jeans and dark clothes, and some leather black Converses. You love colors and dresses, but never dare to wear them (except for your socks right? I remember only wearing colorful socks.) Your hair is tied into a tight ponytail. Me? Well… I just got out of work, so I’m still in my business clothes: classy black dress, high-heels, soft make-up… But on lazy days, I’m more of a colorful dresses person now.


But let’s get back to business…


First year of college is hard because you’ll still be very shy, too shy really. When Mom will propose you to get help for it, do it. It’ll be an excellent decision. (I guess now I’m the kind of girl you want to become someday. Be confident knowing that!)


At the university, you’ll meet this incredible girl who will help you in the process of getting less shy and facing your social anxiety. She’ll become one of your best friends, and you’ll move to Chile together, for 5 months. (That’s right, Chile! Awesome right?) There, you’ll get to travel all across South America with just your backpack, your friend and a crappy map, and you’ll do things I know you don’t even dream of doing right now: climb a volcano, bath in geyser water by -10°C, walk in the Uyuni salt desert, learn Tango in some hidden place in Argentina… It’ll be awesome. You’ll also live in a big house with 11 roommates, from different countries, who will become your second family; I’m still very close to some of them now. Please, don’t fight it when your friend proposes you to move there. I know it will be a hard choice for you to make, but it will be an excellent one and you’ll never, ever regret it. Really.


Oh, and by the way, I didn’t tell you from where I’m writing to you right? I’m in Chicago right now, for the next 5 months. “On a plane I’m leaving for Chicago…” Oh sorry, forgot that you don’t know that song yet. It’s an Alexz’s one! Not to spoil you or anything, but it’s an awesome song which will actually inspire you to go where I am now.


It’s awesome because nobody knows me here, so I get to be whoever I want to be; I know that’s what you’ve always wanted.


Don’t worry too much about falling in love already. It will come when it does. Even now, I’m still trying to find myself so I just decided to let it go and enjoy my life. Do the same, and don’t let peer pressure force you into dating people when you don’t really like them. There are so many things out there to do and live, you don’t even imagine.


But never forget to love people, and to love your family and your friends. Your family is amazing, you already know that. But you’ll come to know during the next 4 years how amazing and how strong they are. Love them. Show them. Share the love with everybody.


Just go live your life, and be awesome. Because if today I’m proud of the roads I’ve taken it’s because I know you’ll make the right decisions. Don’t be scared of the future.


Be confident.


And most of all, be yourself.

I love you,

Your Future You

Hey Alexz,

Stop the negative mind talk. You are way too hard on yourself… what’s the point of any of this if it isn’t fun?

What do you love the most? Why do you love it? So, is it worth it?

Stop taking so many other people’s stuff on.. even though you come from the middle of a huge family, you’re not responsible for each and every one of them.. you need to save some stuff for you!

Stop being so hard on people you love in your life as well..  even though it’s because you want the best for them – it hurts them more than helps them..

Call Grandma and tell her you love her before you lose her.

Eat a sandwich for crying out loud.

Keep surrounding yourself with like minds.. you are who you hang out with.. trust your taste in character.

Remember to focus on the little things…the little amazing gifts that are all around you.

Do the music you want to do, regardless of the struggle. Keep your eye on the ball.

That time you think your heart is going to explode in pain….. it’s a good thing!! Trust it.. learn from it.

Trust ME.

Allow your face to turn red if it chooses, always. It’s endearing, not weak.

Take a deep breath and be careful with your words – they’re all we have.

Dance more.

Love your 25 year old self.

Skipping Stone EP on iTunes & Other Updates…


Nice to be back in the big city. My travels this last few months have been eventful to say the least. LA –> Miami to film a movie (yay for my visa!) –> than back to LA where I played Hotel Cafe and took some management meetings amongst other things. It’s been a ton of learning, everyday. Co-write contracts, Sync licensing, ISRC codes, distribution, apps, merchandise, online store, Sel#’s (still don’t know what that is..), enrolled a pr team! Rehearsals, music video, fulfillment companies, meeting amazingly talented musicians and digging into the Kickstarter backer reports! Finding innovative ways to spread the word on this EP from the ground up. I love having so much control.. although, I have moments of feeling more than a little frazZled. In the end, I want to make the right decisions and not act out of fear that I can’t do it myself…everything in good time! (Anything is possible). I am so lucky to have some really bright, brilliant friends to help with little things here and there… I so look forward to giving back..

Some of my merch arrived in LA at the Hotel show…I had some of it sent there for when I play the west coast. It was so cool holding the EP in my hands. So much heart went into this, it hurts! I’m getting my vinyl jackets created right now.. Here’s what I came home to in NY!

And it begins...

I’m playing Rockwood tomorrow night if you’re out and about.. it’s the official EP release show! Should be a good time..

Oh! Also! Check out this sweet new Alexz Johnson app by Mobile Roadie! —-> http://road.ie/alexz

Annnnd…. I just noticed that the Skipping Stone EP is available now on iTunes!!! Hard to get the timing perfect, but nonetheless, it’s out!!!

Step by step … :)

I hope this finds you well… I will be documenting and sharing my experiences through this Kickstarter campaign as best as I can. Shooting the music video for Walking this weekend — then tour talk!

Thank you for being on this journey with me… what a ride!


Just some things, un-edited version. (There’s no foul language or anything). #titletoolong

I don’t know why I’ve had resignation in writing what I’m doing and working on here in LA… It may be because (I feel) it’s not the most interesting of times for others to read (for me, it is very interesting. Very much). I’ve spent the past 2 weeks taking management meetings / booking agent meetings / planting the starting seeds of my upcoming tour (feels good to say that!!!!!) / song-writing / co-writing for other artists / doing yoga / drinking wine w/friends, sometimes by myself / screen-testing for US networks (often reluctantly, so let’s hope that doesn’t pan out! Just kidding!) and gearing up to head to Miami on Tuesday to film the ever postponed movie I am scheduled to film (helped get my visa to tour in the US!).

This tour is really important to me and I feel responsibility to make it great. I know I can’t do it all by myself (although, I am learning a ton!) so I want to make sure the right team is in place to move forward. It’s funny how pieces fall into place – it’s never on our timeline. It also, in the end, never lets us down!

Please continue to pass along the Kickstarter campaign to friends!!! Looking at the logistics, it takes a lot to conquer the tour I plan in my head… but I’m confident what I see is going to HAPPEN! I can’t believe what we’ve raised since launching… I feel very blessed.. overwhelmed, but in a good way!

I’m doing a “Farewell Kickstarter Stage-it Show” on March 23rd from Miami (60 days is a long time…I had no idea. It’s time to say goodbye). I also have a show coming up at Rockwood Music Hall in NYC on April 24th. Dates will be posted on fb and my website. – I’m pretty thrilled about Rockwood by the way… you can’t read enthusiasm through blogs, I promise you.

I do in all humble servitude (I like how that sounds) hope this finds you well.

Yes, this is a photo of me in the bathroom. It was good day today. I wish it was more creative, but... I don't really.

Have a great weekend,
Alexz xo

Twitfessions. They kill me.

I asked if people would confess something over twitter..

I thought it was really cool hearing some of your deeper stuff..

@RyanLaFave @alexzjohnson My body has no limit when it comes to Jack Daniel’s. Is that healthy? No….But it sure is delicious. #Twitfession

@happylife21 @alexzjohnson #Twitfession I really do feel music can change the world.

@NancyDrewGal @alexzjohnson I’ve never been kissed. #lookingforprincecharming

@CallxMexCarter @alexzjohnson A Boy break my heart today. I’m so sad. #Twitfession.

@KaelynnMae @alexzjohnson I’m hoping to get a job at a day care, but I’m scared of babies, or more so accidentally hurting them #Twitfession

@Emily_Karnick @alexzjohnson #twitfession your song ‘Walking’ makes me sob

@amberjosiexo #twitfession i’ve always felt that almonds are the yummiest in the nut family…i think @alexzjohnson would agree. can i get an ‘AMEN!’

@RhiaLoves @alexzjohnson I’ve met a really great guy but I’m terrified to care too much. Risk getting hurt again. #twitfession

@analesebarbosa @alexzjohnson listening to Voodoo made me remember what real music is! #realmusic

@Tremblay83 @alexzjohnson I’m petrified of going back to school but wanna get laid off so it’s a way to push me to do it. #Twitfession

@izzasaures @alexzjohnson #Twitfession I’m stuck at a point in my life where I dont know what to do next, I don’t really have friends & I feels so alone

@Natty_T_ @alexzjohnson #Twitfession I can now die somewhat happy, I’ve seen you live @SaraBareilles and right now I’m @thecivilwars :p

@santi_alejandra @alexzjohnson I’m in love with someone who doesn’t love me anymore and I don’t know what to do! :( #Twitfession

@booberryyogurt @alexzjohnson my #Twitfession is I only feel attractive when I listen to music.

@booksmartblonde @alexzjohnson I’m going to be a teen mom, and I am terrified. Your song “Spin” keeps me sane. #twitfession

Desired Things

Old Saint Paul’s Church, Baltimore A.D. 1692

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

Music Talk

I wanted to give you a heads up!

I’m going to be streaming full tracks of the new Skipping Stone EP on January 24th at www.alexzjohnson.com.

You will be able to purchase the EP digitally and physically along with other merchandise via Kickstarter.com as well as alexzjohnson.com shortly after.

This EP is part of the steps toward reaching my goal of performing this material for you live, wherever you are. So, around this release, I decided I’m going to be launching a Kickstarter campaign to tour in 2012 to hopefully help get me closer to that possibility. Kickstarter is a really great funding platform for independent artists. It’s powered by a unique all-or-nothing method and if you reach the goal amount your project becomes a reality.

Writing these songs and watching them come to life exceeded my expectations. Through these songs, I found a drive to try and make a tour happen, regardless. I had help from some amazingly talented friends to make this music possible and I’m thrilled to get this out to you now.

I’m humbled by the views of the Skipping Stone music video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UdTgIm_Ar8s

I guess the real point of this blog is to thank you for being a part of the journey and for listening…. thank you for listening.

I look forward to seeing you from the stage!!!!

xx Alexz