A birthday note, on my birthday!

I’m so warm and humbled by all of your birthday wishes & videos! It feels like a big cozy hug on this damp and dewy day shooting in England! (More info on the film coming soon!!)

It’s been an amazing year. Not an easy one, but one full of so much growth, creativity & love. I am so thankful for my old friends and new… just feeling really blessed..

This video was especially heartwarming – (thank you!)

Coming up to the end of 2015, I’ve been reflective on this past year, and also excited about the future..

I’ve been reading all of your messages in regards to the South American tour rewards being too expensive due to the conversion from USD to the different currencies over there in South America & Mexico. Unfortunately, the amount I Kickstarted is exactly what I would need to get over there and tour for you. I understand if it’s a little out of the possibility. I went in and modified what I could pricing wise, although I can’t change what’s already been pledged on.  The campaign has 17 days to go!! I am hopeful! Regardless of when I get there, I AM getting myself there….

Spread the word if you can – it would mean a lot.

Another birthday wish, if you have a moment — (I’m milking this…) PLEASE vote for my brother and my short film endeavor “The Dishwasher” here: http://www.storyhive.com/project/show/id/996
It would just be so cool to collaborate with him on something I believe in so much. Only 5 days of voting left!!!!

That’s all for now,
Thanks for reading!
Sending my love from the UK!
I’m worried I may return with an odd Los Angeles/British/Canadian accent…

God help us.


PS. We’re not having any fun – at all – over here.


I’m going to try to do this blog thing more often.

Rephrase – I’m not going to “try”, I’m “going to” do this.

WRITE. Wait, let me change my font, it’s driving me crazy.

I’m going to write without any judgement on myself. For some reason, it is a very difficult thing for me to do. I know I’m not alone in this though. I’ve done some reading..

I’m going to do this because I think it will be good for my soul, good practice for future endeavours, and something that’s 100% selfish. The good kind of selfish. Shellfish. What?

The hardest part about this, for me, is not knowing exactly what to write about. I don’t want to indulge in myself (even though it is my blog) because that would feel, well, self-indulgent. Although, sometimes all we have to offer others is our perspective, our experiences and our outlook. Since the beginning of time. So, I will most likely write a hell of a lot about myself(ie).*

*If you do choose to read my blog, please be prepared for a lot of dry, non-so-funny, self-indulgent/deprecating humour. Being from a large (loving + mental) family of 10 siblings, I’ve had a lot of empathetic, enabling laughter around my jokes since a young age. So, cut me some slack.

I’m currently writing from the patio of Go Get ‘Em Tiger!, on Larchmont in Los Angeles, on a Monday. It’s boppin’!* (see above) The weather is nice. I have a 4$ green tea beside me (over-priced) and my laptop, which I thankfully retrieved after leaving it on my flight from Nashville on Saturday. Lot’s on my mind, I guess. What’s on my mind?

I have no idea what my true purpose is right now!! Aside from following my heart, which seems to be one of the things I do really well (that and music, I’ve been told, but I question that one often, too). As with all circumstance, so many little things (including the heart thing) have brought me to this very moment. I don’t feel incredibly prepared for what’s next, to be honest. I’m relatively settled in who I am though, and what I want. I know what I don’t like, that’s for sure. I’m trying to get good at not spending my time with people with whom I get nothing out of intellectually, spiritually or emotionally. This is tough too, as I’m a people pleaser. Yuck. *I also would like to incorporate “with whom” into my vocabulary more often.

I’m a musician, sometimes actress, I think. On good days I feel like I know what I’m doing. Or, let’s be honest and human — when people are praising me, I really feel like I know what I’m doing. On quiet days, I feel like no one cares, I don’t even care, and I dive into moments of severe and irrational self-doubt. This is good to know. It’s funny hearing myself write this, because I see a catch-22. I do what I want in the moment because I’m (as stubborn as hell) looking for my truth, but after the fact, I’m waiting for the affirmation. If I’m going to drive toward the former, I need to let go of the latter. Easy, right? I tell myself this all the time. Life does tend to give you exactly what you need.

Feelings aren’t real. Weird huh? Spill your truth, love your vulnerability.

I’ve always enjoyed writing and sharing personal experiences. Although I’m quite private, maybe something I share can help someone else on their journey. I also like to make people laugh, so this is a nice little outlet for me… (cue, “aww, Alexz is so considerate… sigh”). I want to watch my language though. I still believe in grace and try to lean towards the classy side of things, no matter how edgy or dirty this industry (world) can make you. Or tries to make you.

I’m trekking some new territory in my life right now guys! Between a past chapter and the next one. These times are kinda scary, but amazing. You need to dig. (I) need to dig. Maybe you too, I don’t know..  Let’s do a little re-cap for the hell of it since I haven’t posted here since my European tour, shall we?

On the music end. Releasing my latest album “Let ‘Em Eat Cake” via pledge was actually a weight lifted considering how long the process was, and even more than that, how unique it was a&ring my own album. If you’re an artist, I’m sure you know the drive to get your art as far as you can take it, into as many people’s peripherals as possible. You also know it’s important to have a mentor. Someone you can bounce your vibe off of. Someone who gets you. Life is a learning curve, and you can only make the best decision that you feel in the moment. I almost feel like I saved the album close to the end of the race, to be honest. I learned a lot this past year, and I’m thankful for that. I was in the midst of working with a pr team and shuffling out every penny I had from my merchandise sales to try to get my just released album seen on some other platforms other than my twitter, fb, & instagram (which, thanks to you, exists). It was tough, and even with a Grammy winning producer behind me, almost impossible. It’s not the rejection that’s tough… because that just comes with life… and I’m an actress so, I’m used to that territory. It’s the impossibility of being given a chance to truly get a leg up as an independent artist, let me rephrase, the ability to continue creating independently, is the tough part. I’m not talking “signed to an independent label with support”, I’m also not speaking for every independent artist, I’m talking about a girl who’s spending every last cent of her sales and touring earnings into her music, back into her tours, and her pr. Having a fan base is a gift, but it isn’t enough. I’ve been offered deals, but that’s a route that could be worse for wear based on how unstable majors are nowadays. Also, I’ve been shelved twice. Would you touch that stove again..? In the end, it isn’t even about quality. It’s the luck of the right person pushing the right button, at the right time. It can feel impossible sometimes..

The beauty of it though, as Jay-Z once stated “The genius thing we did was, we didn’t give up.”

We keep going.

We have no choice. It’s the voice, it’s the drive, it’s the whisper that tells you you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be (which can be such a pain!). I’m not sure how many artists will admit it, but deep down, you’re hoping someone you admire and love will tell you to give up…  just stop. Move on and be practical with your life. For whatever reason. I actually believe I’m a little insane.

This isn’t every day mantra, but it does get dark.

I’ve learned to really manage my expectations.

Constantly being thankful for the opportunity to have put out a few albums and ep’s that came from a place of truth, during that time of my journey.

I can only hope the world spins to my beat and offers me the chance to continue touring and the heart to keep writing (without having to shave my head, or free the nipple).

I’m writing. I’m sculpting my music, a few music videos in the works and most importantly working on my soul.

You have to work for happiness, you know. It doesn’t land on your doorstep.

I guess by the end of this entry, this is me, sharing with you. Simple as that. Maybe I’ll start a punk band called The Spoilers. Or, maybe I’ll never write in this shitty thing again.

Let’s see what tomorrow brings!

What a ride.

PS. You can vote for me to be able to fund a music video from my latest album at StoryHive: http://www.storyhive.com/project/show/id/484

Or don’t, it’s all good.

I’m going to close this now. I won’t edit or change a thing.

Love AJ


European Tour Announcement

Hey guys!

I hope this finds you well… :)

I’m excited to write you this update.. being in the midsts of the album recording process here in NYC, there hasn’t been much to announce or share quite yet… This album has been a while coming and it’s very important to me – especially the process. I find myself introverting more than expected during this time. I will tell you – I am thrilled with where the songs are being taken and I can’t wait to share them with you!!!!! Soon!!!

I am beyond excited to be supporting Ron Pope & Wakey!Wakey! on tour this winter. It’s going to be my first time playing overseas – and truthfully, I wouldn’t be able to continue making music and playing shows if it wasn’t for your support along the way. So, thank you! I’m coming for you!!! Tickets on sale HERE!

I’ll be playing..

Jan 31 UK, Glasgow, Oran Mor

Feb 01 UK, Belfast, Mandela Hall

Feb 02 Ireland, Dublin, Vicar Street

Feb 04 UK, Manchester, Academy 2

Feb 05 UK, Sheffield, Plug

Feb 07 UK, Nottingham, Rescue Rooms

Feb 08 UK, London, Shepherds Bush Empire

Feb 09 UK, Bristol, The Fleece

Feb 11 Germany, Hamburg, Ubel & Gefahrlich

Feb 12 Sweden, Malmo, KB

Feb 13 Sweden, Gothenburg, Tradgarn

Feb 14 Norway, Oslo, Parkteatret

Feb 15 Sweden, Stockholm, Tyrol

Feb 17 Germany, Berlin, Lido

Feb 18 Holland, Amsterdam, Paradiso

Feb 19 Germany, Cologne, Luxor

Feb 20 Germany, Frankfurt, Batschkapp

Feb 21 Germany, Munich, Strom

On this tour you’ll be able to hear some new material from the upcoming album.. 
Also! Here is a video from my performance at Irving Plaza on Saturday night. What a memory that was…

Thanks again for your support and see you from the road!

All my love, 

This is what my first tour looks like…

Hacking, amongst other things.


Writing this post was something I pondered on for a few weeks.. but, it’s an interesting story and I thought I should share it with my loyal fans..  especially if any of you have gone through what I’ve experienced recently..

I came to remember why I started this blog in the first place. To have a sounding board for those who care to read, but especially for my own reflection on my journey through life and being an artist… a place where I can share my truth.

Have you ever been hacked?

It occurred to me how many people haven’t experienced this first hand… for those who have, I feel for you. Many of my friends have seen me in tears – especially when my whole email got deleted (by accident) since 2005 (!!!) at the Mac Store trying to re-configure my iCloud of all things.. I’ll get there in a sec..

It’s devastating. For some reason, it’s been happening to me for years since first signing with Capitol Records in 2006. Demo’s have been leaked, co-writes have been leaked, photo’s of course, and recently my iCloud was compromised which revealed my personal calendar/journal and all of my industry contacts. I change my password every 5 days. People I have worked with have been emailed by an impersonator asking for demo’s and un-finished material…. This is embarrassing. It doesn’t represent me and it could have potentially damaged my relationships had I not realized and personally contacted these friends myself. — See attachment below of one (of many) false emails to around 20 writers I had worked with….

False Email

Threats as well. See attachment below of (one of many) emails to one of my personal addresses demanding demo’s after getting a hold of my personal calendar…


I also got a screen-grab photo of my calendar sent to me as well. SUPER exciting viewing my yoga, writing, and dating schedule.. (?) (Ps. On my off days, I’m a CIA Agent).

Even members of my family have been targeted. More recently, verbally abused over twitter. This lights the flame in the belly.

I’m a singer-songwriter who has used the crowd-funding platform as an exchange for the music I create and the shows I play. I realized that “going directly to the fanbase” was a new shift in involving your listeners first hand on the product you deliver. I love that I get a chance to interact with my fans like this — I am incredibly thankful for this support, and it has given me the chance to tour twice this past year, create merch to sell world-wide, set-up my next album, shoot music videos and live videos, meet my supporters first hand, and everything else that initials being an independent artist. However, after reading some comments via-twitter, under my instagram photos and my blog email –  I did not realize there was more that was expected or wanted of me? Boundaries being crossed, and entitlement felt from a minority group of fans.

My most recent experience via the internet.
I had been receiving notifications from Instagram that a specific few were trying to hack into my account… lovely, but what do you do? I left it for a few months…
See attachment of notification below. I decided to black out the names for respectful purposes. I don’t know why Instagram specifically in this case, but these were the emails I had been receiving – quite a few times..


At this point, I had decided to respectfully take matters into my own hands, reach out to the names that had been shown to me via these notifications, of course privately. I had these emails via Kickstarter, or my email lists from live shows I had played. This is what I wrote.

My email

After receiving e-mails back that there had been no such kind of occurrence, (phew!) (Names and emails I will keep private out of respect!) I believed, trusted their truth and then emailed back a response, a thank you, and that was that.

So, it seems like there could be a rumour going around that “Alexz is accusing her fans of hacking her”. This to me, is crazy because I’ve always lived my life giving everyone the benefit of the doubt.

On that note, if you are indeed reading this, thank you for your time. I appreciate you hearing my thoughts… Further, If you are someone who has been blocked recently from my twitter feed – please know – I wake up everyday, as do you. Sad moments, great moments, up’s and down’s, fears and tears. I choose to surround myself with light, goodness and things that help make me feel strong and create the music I love creating so much. What would you do in my position?

I will honestly block anyone who is disrespectful to me, or my family. Nothing more is owed than the product I create and the appreciation of my genuine, amazing fans. I thank you, again if you have been one of those supporters. I have enjoyed getting to know some of you personally, and I truly wouldn’t be here without the loyalty of those who listen to my music. It is such an exciting time.. I’m looking forward to more shows, albums, and potential tours – aiming to play overseas as soon as the album is ready for release.

– Love,

Alexz Johnson

Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.
Viktor E. Frankl

House Of Bodies, my personal thoughts.

I thought it would be appropriate for me to post my thoughts and feelings on the recent Netflix release of House Of Bodies, here on my personal blog. This won’t be long. 

As some of you may know, I am a key character in the film. The abrupt release being on Netflix surprised me as much as the Director, Alex Merkin. I had not seen, or even been privy to an edit of the film, nor had any of the actors for that matter. 

It saddens me that so much talent, passion and hard work lead to such a poor edit of our film. An edit that doesn’t lend itself to the script at all. An edit that we never would have signed up to be involved in. It’s embarrassing, and diminishes the craft. 

This film came into my life at a time that was completely kismet. I had just moved to NYC and needed something of substance to lock down my visa so I could continue to perform, tour, record and persue my music in the US. 

In the end, fear based thinking and money seems to win the race when working amongst companies that treat the creative process like a manufacturing house. 

There really isn’t much of a lesson to be learned in these situations.. maybe an understanding of the inundation of fear-based thinking in the film industry. Regardless, I am so proud of the cast and crew involved in this film — it was so much fun spending time and falling in love with our characters… Alex Merkin was a kick ass director who gave so much freedom to express, screw up and grow. – Thank you, everyone. x

If you’re not failing every now and again, it’s a sign you’re not doing anything very innovative. 

– Woody Allen


Tour, New Music & 2013


I love this blog. I feel it’s a good way to get perspective on my choices and upcoming routes I plan on taking, and while doing so it also lets me bring you into my thought process.. Honesty and vulnerability all tied into one! At the end of the day, one can hope they’re headed in the right direction.

This last few months has been amazing..

I got to check-off my first US tour wish (!!), I learned so much on the road, I got to meet so many of my fans and really got a chance to connect with them. I fell in love with music all over again and since wrapping up the tour in LA Aug 18th, I’ve been writing non-stop for the next album. Videographer & photographer Jessica Earnshaw documented the tour here.

It’s always a strange feeling getting off of a movie, or a tour, or anything that creatively heightens the senses. You have days where you’re left with yourself (which can be a challenge). Being still… I felt this was something I needed to do for a bit before heading into the next music project. Just be with myself for a second and really think about the sound I’m going for. I pulled the plug on going to London to start recording (for now).. As badly as I wanted to immediately start the next album, something inside of me said to slow down, write more, look at all of your options and songs and make sure you’re doing this because the timing is right, not because you have a fear you’ll lose an opportunity.

I think those are important things to think about…

I’m so excited about some of this new music I’m writing, I need to take a deep breath.. kid in a candy store.

I played Webster Hall on Sept 28th, opening for Lindsey Stirling, which was such a blast. I have a some shows coming up this month that I’m excited about. Rockwood Music Hall for CMJ Oct 17th, and opening for Charlene Kaye & Jay Stolar at Brighton Music Hall Oct 29th in Boston, which should be sweet.

I’m in the process of going through paperwork in signing with music management. It’s a gift having the extra hand on a day-to-day basis as things move forward, or sometimes backwards, depending. Also depending on when you ask me, lol. I’m so stubborn with things like publishing and or/record contracts based on my history with them. That being said, I feel I’m surrounding myself with people I trust and want to build with so I can trust a little more.

I’m also working on a documentary that I’m excited about getting out to you.. :) Amongst other things.

It’s fall now in NY.. and I just found a record player for 80$. It’s a good day.

Love Al

Update on Packages and Hey!


I’ve been getting a ton of emails and tweets regarding where your Kickstarter packages are.

…I have no idea where they went.

..Just kidding.

They are on the way to you. Depending on where you live, you should get it in about 3 weeks at most. I wish I knew in hindsight how much time it was going to take to gather information from 939 people, on top of getting this tour off the ground. I’m sorry for the delay and thank you kindly for your patience!!

Also, for those who sent in rad t-shirt designs for this Skipping Stone tour, BLESS YOU! They are all so creative and different.. I ended up finding a great design that is in production now! I look forward to showing it to you guys.. hopefully you like it!

We leave for tour so soon..
I’m playing Rockwood Friday evening and sharing the stage with some fierce talent!! Misty Boyce and Theo Katzman.. it’s going to be a kickass way to kick-off this tour.

I’m also super excited to be back in Toronto July 26th to play The Drake! My dear friend Barb of Mamabolo is opening!

Again – thank you for being patient with your packages. Next time I’ll know it will take longer than a month..

Kickstarter excel sheets – it’s been real peachy keen, but I’m happy to not see you around for awhile…

Love Al